asdfhhkalamgsk (my feelings)

Okay I honestly don't know if anyone even reads my blog, but I need to vent somewhere. I seriously have no one to talk to right now.

People are pushing me left and right to date around. And I miss Jake really bad. I honestly want him here so bad right now so he could comfort me and tell me I don't have to listen to anyone's opinion. Seriously though, I just curled up in a ball and cried. Hahaha I'm such a baby. I really really REALLY wish it was 2016. I miss having my hand held and being kissed but I know I wouldn't feel comfortable or even want to do that with anyone else.

I really miss my Jake.

one day

one day you will meet somebody

and fall in love with the way they walk,

how their eyes light up when they're happy

and how they speak your name

one day you will find someone so unlike

everyone else that's come before

you'll be afraid to start things because

you never want them to end

one day you'll spend hours talking 

about anything, nothing, and everything,

and out of nowhere, you will realize

that you have completely fallen for him 

one day there's going to be the 

perfect first kiss, the long silences 

on phone calls, ten minute hugs, and

whispered late night conversations

one day you're going to be half asleep

on his couch and you'll hear him

lean down and softly whisper those

three words for the thousandth time 

and one day, you will come to know

that you don't want to spend your

forever with anybody else. it will

happen, I promise

and there is nothing more wonderful.