This is an example of a question I get asked daily about why I'm waiting for a missionary.
Let me explain something. If Jake was just a guy I thought was cute, or someone who it MIGHT work with, I wouldn't be waiting for him.
No, actually, Jake is THE guy. I've been hooked on him since the first time we talked, and I couldn't possibly let go. Now that I know what it's like to be loved unconditionally by someone I love unconditionally back, I never want to throw that away. I love every single thing about Jake. To put it simply, I just don't want to be with anybody else for the rest of eternity.
But if that's not enough for you, let me take you back to the moment I decided to wait.
December 27th, 2013
Jake took me to temple square today. We went on a double date with Taylor and his lady and Eric fifth wheeled with us. It was so much fun. :) I was having such a good time with my friends and was so in love with Jake. He took me to see the dizzy tree and bought me hot chocolate and he held my hand like he was proud of it. I was so happy to be with him.
About an hour into our date Jake started to seem a little uneasy. He pulled me to the side and asked me if he could talk to me for a minute. I agreed eagerly, hoping to figure out what was wrong. We left our friends, and Jake led me to this beautiful, secluded spot right next to the visitors center. He turned me to face him, grabbed both of my hands in his, and looked me in the eyes (I absolutely love it when he does that). He said, "Mckensie, I need you to know something. I am so madly in love with you, and that's why I need to do this." Then I felt him slip something on my finger. I looked down and saw the most beautiful ring sitting on my left hand. "WHAT??" I gasped. I grabbed his face and looked into both his eyes to see if he was serious. He smiled his perfect little smile and pulled me in close and kissed me. When he pulled away he said, "Mckensie, I never want to spend a day of my life without you, but I'm about to go serve the Lord for two years. I want you to know that I will come back for you. I will, I promise you. You are the only thing I want in life. I promise to love you unconditionally until the end of time and beyond. I promise you that my heart will always be yours. I will forever treat you like a princess, because thats what you are. Heavenly Father trusted me with his little girl and I will not let him down. I'm going to come back in two years and propose to you for real, then marry your face off and keep you forever. I love you, Mckensie Anna, and this is my promise to you."
I teared up and was lost for words. This was the last thing I had expected... but I realized it was the only thing I had wanted. I couldn't be with anyone else. Jake and I had something that very few people are lucky enough to have -- unconditional, perfect, true love. There's no way I would let him go. Not now, not in two years, not ever.
"Jake." I stepped back so he could see me clearly. "Now I need to tell you a few things." I made him sit down on a bench with me, then grabbed his hands again. "I promise you I'm going to wait. I love you so much, I couldn't possibly do anything else. I promise you to always love you and to stay strong. I'm not going anywhere. I love you so much." I hugged him tight, kissed his cheeks, then kissed him right on the mouth.
We sat on that bench and laughed together and held hands. I couldn't believe how overjoyed I was. We were really going to be together forever. I was so amazed at the fact that I had such an incredible boyfriend, and how it had all come together. I know Heavenly Father had a plan for us from the start, and I'm excited to see what the future holds. :)"
That's why I will wait. I'm waiting because I'm absolutely in love with him. I'm waiting because I can't imagine a day in my life without him. I'm waiting because true love can make it through anything. I love him so so soooo much. :)
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