It's almost been eleven months since Jake has been on his mission, and exactly a year since I've seen him. I miss him so much. I love him MORE THAN EVER. I am learning to love him in so many different ways, and our relationship has matured exponentially since he left.
Our relationship was never ever a bad thing. Jake and I have never fought or had any problems (I know, I got really lucky). Don't get me wrong -- we're both imperfect people and we're both human -- we've made mistakes. But never has our relationship been bad. We have both matured so much over this last year, and it's just amazing to watch as the whole dynamic of our relationship has changed, yet the love hasn't.
My first semester of college has come and gone, along with all the college boys. I did date around a little, and even ended up dating one guy for a while -- but only a short while. Why? Because once I screwed my head on straight, I realized I didn't want to ever be with anyone else besides my sweet Jake. Do I regret dating in college? Certainly not. I truly believe it helped me stay sane. It built me up and showed me my own strengths (and unfortunately, my weaknesses) -- I got to know myself better. I learned a lot. But most of all, dating helped me realize the things I love and appreciate most in Jake. I didn't realize that some of the things that Jake does for me are things that no other boy would ever do. I love him so much. He really is my best friend and I never want to be with anyone else.
That's the best part about falling in love with someone. If you love them the right way, you will never be alone. You always share your problems with them, and their problems become yours as well. You have a best friend by your side NO MATTER WHAT. Love, if it is true, is unconditional, wonderful, and such a blessing. I love being in love.
Last year I was sitting side by side with Jake on his living room couch playing scrabble on his moms iPad. I remember last year so well. He was playing with my hair and sneaking in kisses when his family wasn't paying attention. He lent me some of his (mismatched) socks because my feet were freezing. We sat as close together as we could. We had football on the TV and the Christmas tree lit -- it was so cozy. Five minutes to midnight, we went outside and banged on pots and pans and I got my new year's kiss (even in front of his parents!!) and it was just so much fun. I can't wait for more new year's eves like that one.
Yeah, so anyways. I guess my New Year's resolution would be to be a better girlfriend. I feel so inadequate having a guy like Jake to keep up with -- he makes me feel like the most special girl in the world. I love him to pieces. I'm going to be more consistent with my letters and emails, try harder to show him how much I love him, and (obviously) not date. Hehe :) I love my sweet boy. I started this year with him, and I'm ending it with him -- how happy is that?? And I plan on starting and ending every single year with him for the rest of my life. <3
These three pictures sum up our entire relationship:
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